My misdeeds and my crimes,
deprive me of the sleep of high primes.
My conscience throbs in the agony chimes.
So my soul suffocates,eventually sublimes.
Eyes loathe my shadow so bitter like Mediterranean limes,
and degradation and decay hasten with times.
The perfect body collapses with a thud,
with all my fame drowning in the lowly mud.
They slander me and call me a dud,
or on occasions I am an infected bud.
Thus I am chewed like a cud
and twisted endlessly till people make me blood.
Sanity and tranquility flee,
repentance and woe welcome me.
My whole life rests on rage’s tree,
burning my soul for everything I did to thee.
Stale memories sting me like a bee.
Remorse and regret are my only fee.
I am drowning in the ocean of sadness,
with none to rescue me from this madness.
My present plight lacks gladness,
I desperately yearn for a moment of happiness.
But the Nature shan’t give me forgiveness,
for my acts are beyond the ambit of badness.
Dark and dusted curtains surround my vision,
my intellect has ended in a fission.
My entire personality is a big lesion,
criticism is my everyday pension.
I am my beloved hatred’s denizen,
of a place fraught with tension.
I want to dagger the malice of my heart,
so there is nothing but eternity to start.
Condemnation is my life’s only alive part.
My demeanor is an imperfect art,
which is suggestive of a wart.
What am I to myself? Nothing but a dart.
I have committed things,
which now no one sings.
I want to escape my state with freedom wings.
I have created those dings,
which are irremovable by wrings,
lured by Nature’s kings.
Lamentation doesn’t soothe my soul,
as the devil has created a bottomless hole.
You can’t measure my pain with a pole.
There are blisters on my heart’s sole,
which can’t be treated with medicine sole.
I just seek forgiveness as my dole.
The Guilt has poisoned my brain,
vengeance had drenched me in the rain,
and so I committed the blunder in vain.
Now Guilt diseases every tissue in its reign,
and has rendered me as worthless as a grain.
The Guilt has murdered my brain!